Brielle is 1 month!

Our little Brielle is already a month old. Thinking back to a month ago and my life at that time, and my life now, it has changed a lot.

I am amazed how this little baby has made me feel like a new mom all over again. I'm asking questions like she's my first. She's really put my sanity to the test. I love her so much and so grateful to have her in our family, but she has really put the exclamation mark at the end of our little family.

First her stats:

She is 20 3/4"- yeah amazing still how she's grown from 18" to 20 3/4" but oh well :)

And she is only 8 lbs. 2 oz. So still not even up to her birth weight yet.

From day one we've noticed her issues with gas. She really struggles with it and feeding her is interesting because you are burping her more than feeding her. She'll swallow a couple times and stop and cry from a gas bubble but she's so hard to burp that she's asleep usually before you get her to burp and she doesn't want to finish eating. She is only eating about 2 oz a feeding which is apparently really low. We try to feed her more but she refuses.

At night she typically will throw up a ton and we give have to give her a bath. She fusses non-stop and you can't figure out how to make her feel comfortable.

Its been a real trial for me because I am such a goer and doer that having to be holding her non-stop or caring for her all the time, has really been trying on my patience. There have been days where Brecklynn is in her pjs till 10 or 11 because I can't put Brielle down long enough to do anything else. I had these hopes of doing a little school time with the kids every morning but that's been hard too. Plus to top it all off, since I am truly going on 3-4 hours maybe a night, my tempermant isn't the best and the kids sadly pay for it. I know this time will pass (hopefully soon), but it sure makes it hard to feel like I am back to normal.

Even harder yet is getting people to believe me on what she is like. For the most part if we go out anywhere, she tends to shut down and be happy or just sleep the entire time. As soon as we get home though, she is crying non-stop and you can't put her down.

Brecklynn was a hard baby and I remember that about 3 months she worked herself out of it, but she wasn't nearly this bad. Doesn't help that my milk supply wasn't good this time round and just gave up nursing and just went to formula. So I wonder sometimes if that is a factor in it.

When I took her in for her appt. the dr. really made me feel a little better about things. No he didn't give me a remedy of any kind but just said it was ok to hold her all the time and she won't get spoiled. I was really worried about that. Cambree has been a real blessing, in that she is ALWAYS wanting to help hold her. I have utilized her a lot more than I thought I would but she is a great big sister. She helps get her up from her swing or wherever she is and brings her to me or will just hold her and try to console her. She hasn't gotten tired of her yet and even between her holding her she is asking to hold her more. I'm so blessed and grateful to have her.

So I am hoping this next month is a little better but from what I hear, we are only at the beginning.

I have been so terrible with pictures but I tried to take a couple of her with the kids.